If you give Love , You get Love back....

YOU GET WHAT YOU GIVE

Most of us live in Silent Desperation

01/27/09
The last four months have been very trying, not just on myself but on many of those close to me.
We had a few funerals many tears have fallen on barren soil...the usual I'm so sorry for your loss,
and yet I heard no one cry out loud..when my Son Nicolas was killed I screamed till blood ran down the sides of my mouth...sure we had a Funeral too and I could not believe that my Nic had touched so many people, for there over a thousand people there, that was almost six years ago...but I still live in Silent Desperation...now when I look into people's eyes it's easy for me to see and feel their pain, folks tell me ! well he's in a better place and I stop and say to myself now how do they know that? have they been there themselves or do they say that out of Faith, my Nicolas Lives in my Heart...I don't have to go to any special place to be with him, after my Pastor at that time gave his Eulogy I wanted to beat him have to death for there were no words about my Boy just propaganda for His church, now that may be the reason for my silent desperation. My 29th. wedding Anniversary will soon be here and that's the day He died....